About me

Earlier this year my nineteen year old daughter left home. My friend and lover of 5 years died, and I ran smack bang into a midlife crisis.

The last nineteen years have been lived as a mother first and foremost, an income earner, the housekeeper, gardener, chauffeur, and at times when I looked at myself in the mirror, I was reminded of the woman gradually aging.

I haven’t been a mother in the traditional “mum, dad and the kid” sense, just me and one kid.  Obviously it took a potential dad to help in the production of this child, however the precious gift of our beautiful daughter did not cement the parental relationship.

Knowing I would be raising my child on my own by the time my little girl was 2, I moved from the city to the country.  There she was raised with the freedom to explore paddocks and bush, climb trees and ride horses.  She took drama classess, piano, guitar, and drum lessons.  She had the extended family of a small primary school of 26 children.  Then went to a catholic high school.

I worked doing all sorts of jobs to give her the best I could, as long as what I did fitted around being a mother.  I raised chickens, the odd kangaroo and possum.  I fed the dog, the cat and tended the horse.  I maintained the garden, even grew some vegetables.

The magic of hearing chickens tweeter in their shells with their imminent hatching not far off.  The look on my daughter’s face as she held the eggs to her ear.  The fun she had finding and eating fresh peas, or pulling up a carrot.  I derived joy from the joy my child experienced in the things I did to bring her joy.  It was addictive, and I did everything to feed the addiction, completely immersing myself in motherhood.

Now 19 years later, I’m in that place of transition that happens to all of us.  A place where the past is just that and the future is unsure.  It’s time to acknowledge that inner ‘thing’ I can feel yearning for attention.  It’s time to begin a new journey - middlescence.

I’m a woman rediscovering…myself as a woman, a single woman,  a 52 year old single woman.

I love  singing, african drumming, writing, photography. I’m doing a Life Coaching course. I live in the country.  I’m exploring communication via the internet.  I’m looking forward to seeing what new dimensions it can bring to myself and others.

I’m living my midlife crisis, and finding midlife magic