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Unconditional Love - Part Two
What is unconditional love.?
Is it real, or is it an ideal to aspire to?
Are we only able to love our children unconditionally?
I remember yearning to be a mother. I wanted to love and raise a child. Was this a desire to give unconditional love? Or was it a need that I expected loving a child [...]
Unconditional Love - part one
When my beautiful daughter left here, after her last visit,
she was going to Dubbo to the highly regarded Western Plains Zoo.
When she’d gone I thought about zoo visits we’d had when she was a child and decided to reminisce with a cup of tea and some photos.
There were many photos that stirred emotions.
The mess she’d [...]
Love is?
Minutes before this photo was taken, that beautiful calm the sunset imposes was missing, as the waves crashed almost recklessly upon the shore.
Then the transformation occurred. Snippets of orange and pinks began to appear on the horizon. My focus changed from the power of the ocean to the magic forming in the sky.
As nature painted [...]
Sydney And The Deep Blue Sea
After spending a couple of days in Sydney, I’ve needed a couple of days to get over my stay in that beautiful city I spent many years living in, and now my daughter wants to do the same.
In my youth I found Sydney an invigorating city. Full of beauty and life. A rich tapestry of [...]
Love, Like A River Flows
Love like a river flows
Infinite in depth and strength
Forever mysterious,
entrancing,
beckoning
The soul of life
Love like a river flows
….Been thinking a lot about love lately; its lure to continually participate. Looking into this river as the day drew to a close, its stillness reflected life, and I fell in love all over again. I’m not even sure [...]
Talonted
My first promotion of a favourite blog has to be Talonted: http://talonted.blogspot.com/
Not only is Talon an observer and photographer of all things beautiful in nature and in her own back yard, she is also an inspiring writer. Her words are vivid in imagery:
Some things are just beautiful…
like the sweet sliver of crescent moon sitting low [...]
Blog Awards
I’ve recently been awarded my second blog award. The first blog award I decided to ….somewhat rudely really, ignore. I just couldn’t quite figure out why I didn’t want to accept it, but I didn’t want to. I didn’t have enough time think about it in depth. I didn’t want to just say ‘no,’ so [...]
Details and the Big Picture
That’s how I see my life: a whole lot of complex detail, needing attention, clouding my ability to see the big picture.
But what is the big picture? Viewed from a child’s perspective, the big picture is often what we are going to be when we grow up. When we have grown up, and become what [...]
As Clear as? - Fitzroy Falls!
Toward the waterfall
I used to bush walk in Fitzroy Falls, a beautiful area, where it is easy to walk and think, amongst the sound of birds, and the smell of Eucalypts, or sit and meditate to the sound of waterfalls. Recently I returned to Fitzroy Falls, camera in hand, to take photos of a place I [...]
Contemplating
This may seem like a bit of a contradiction to my last post of being in a tunnel, but over the last year, I’ve done a lot of doing. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve done a fair bit of contemplating too as well as bit of meditation here and there, but generally a lot of doing. [...]
There Is A Crack In Everything - That’s How The Light Gets In
Once upon a time life was good. Not easy, but good. She was the protector, the provider, the producer, the nurturer. She worked hard and was rewarded with the abundance of life.
He came - a gift from life, in all his abundance of good and bad. He saw, not always what she saw, [...]
Relax, Relax…..Relax!
Why is it that Melo the cat, can just relax - anywhere? Why is it whenever I try to relax, I firstly need to find a quiet space? Then I need something comfortable to sit on, and I need the temperature to be right. Too cold and I’ll have to get up and get [...]
A Sense Of Calm
On the 24th of April it was the 1st anniversary of Alex’s death. It was anticipated with grief,angst and remorse.
I thought about him often during the weeks leading up to ‘the day.’ Not so much him - I always think about Alex. I thought more about the circumstances around that period of time a [...]
Ways of Seeing
If you like cats, the following will be an appealing photo. If you don’t, you’ll probably already be thinking “not another cat or kitten story, that she thinks is cute.”
No, this post is about changing the frame of reference, to get a different picture, a different understanding.
This is the vision that greeted me recently as [...]
All Things Great are Small
This week I have come down with a cold. It has hit me like a sledge hammer. I haven’t had a cold in years, so I’d forgotten how foggy headed and miserable a cold can make one feel.
I feel as though all the rain we’ve had has fallen directly on me, saturated me, and left [...]
Blue Sky after days of dark clouds
Finally on Wednesday blue sky broke its way through the clouds.
We’ve had grey days and rain for days on end. Grey sky, dark clouds, and all the crap with Telstra/Bigpond. How readily my mood can plummet, when things go wrong and the sky is grey.
What did I do, how did I cope, living in Sydney [...]
A piece of the puzzle
A moment of enlighternment happened on the way to work the other day. I had this ‘flash’ of my daughter as a baby, probably about 9 months old. We were visiting friends with a son, a month older than my daughter. He was sitting, playing with Duplo blocks, the larger version of Leggo blocks. At [...]
“Mum, there’s nothing to do.”
Over the weekend I spent some time with a couple of women I know. I had just finished work at the hotel, where some of the guys had arrived back after a weekend fishing. They sat together, recalling worthy moments of their weekend away, bonded by their experience.
As we chatted and listened to their stories, [...]
Wow, how time flies!
How time flies - I just looked at the date of my last post. Two weeks ago! What have I been doing that has kept me away from my blog? Setting up a website. The site is called http://southernhighlandsentertainment.com/ It is about Southern Highlands entertainment. I’ve used the Wordpress platform again. Now that within itself [...]
Challenges
Yesterday I saw someone who brought up many memories and various thoughts. We’d been good friends many years ago, when my daughter and I first moved to the area.
He’s an intelligent man, with a good career, financially stable and owns a beautiful little farm with a very comfortable log cabin style home. He has been [...]
Single parenting
Over the last few days there have been a number of incidences that have left me contemplating the result of single parenting. The main one I guess, being a post left on http://thewildpomegranate.wordpress.com/2009/01/16/the-more-things-change-part-ii/
In this post, Grace, the mother of two children she has raised on her own, expresses her thoughts, her anguish, her love, on [...]
Ambition to Meaning: Finding your life’s purpose
Recently I posted the trailer for Ambition to Meaning: http://whttp://hotmiddlescence.com/2008/12/09/what-was-great-in-the-morning-will-be-little-at-evening/
I found the trailer and some of Dr Dyer’s quotes compelling enough to find myself looking forward to seeing the film.
Yesterday, my oportunity came via www.spiritualmediablog.com Matt Welsh had left a post with footage of of an interview with Dr Wayne Dyer on Ellen Degeneres. During [...]
Memories
About a year ago Alex and I spent one of my most memorable times together. He’d been on a ten day 4 wheel drive tour into the high country in Victoria. On his arrival back here we went out for dinner to one of the small village eateries. It was a romantic atmosphere, with only [...]
Reflection and 2009
The first day of the new year.
Under the shower this morning I wanted to wash last year down the plug hole. I wanted to start afresh.
Then I realised that it was what happened last year that has led me to where and who I am now. I am so grateful for the things I’ve descovered [...]
